Adoption was NEEEEEVERRRRRRRRRR a consideration for us. Never!! It's worth repeating. Never. Never.
Did I mention that we had never considered adoption?
Yet we struggled with infertility for years.
IVF was how we grew our family.
If you had told me even a year ago that we'd be pursuing adoption in 2011, I'd have laughed. Maybe even peed my pants a little. (But we've already covered that.) We had a full quiver, in our opinion. After the twins were born, people would ask "are you going to have any more?" And I'd roll my eyes, guffaw and with a grandiose wave of my hand, declare, "WE ARE DONE!".
haha. God :"Done being pregnant maybe".
2010 was a year of great learning for me. I actually read my bible. Imagine that. And not just in bits and pieces. I started in Genesis and read and read and read. I'm reading still.
God opened my eyes to certain things. I began to believe in a way I never have before, even though I was brought up as a Christian since birth.
In January of this year, I asked God to put me in action. To help me live out the things I'd been reading and learning.
The power of God to change a heart is truly stunning. All I did was ask.
Oh my goodness, don't get me wrong--I fall colossally short of the glory of God. And all my best works are but filthy rags. But I am trying every day to be a better servant. I am asking Him to make me a better servant, to show me the needs, to break my heart.
2 comments:
Oh my goodness, you're a riot. We must be alike. Because one...I pee my pants too after sneezing...can't jump on a trampoline...or go jogging...because, yes...I have had 2 children. :)
2...I love the color of your walls. Yellow...with white trim...in 18 years of marriage, that is what every single house I have owned has been painted on the inside.
3...can't stand getting in the water...totally would rather sip lemonade, with only my feet in. Once a year I try and be a really good mom, and go all the way in for my children. :)
I am going to enjoy reading your blog!
what a dangerous, powerful prayer- Father break my heart for hat breaks yours --- thank the Lord you prayed that! i am so pleased to "meet" you and your family. i pray Alana comes home soon!
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